I'm not sure what to write here, but I definitely need to write something. I mean, I sort of avoid journals because I could be doing something else, you know? I find it difficult to sit still, and writing a journal falls into that category. If I'm pausing, recalling what's happened in the last day or weeks or what-have-you, then I'm no longer progressing forward... I'm stuck in time, only remembering... not doing.

Still, at this point, sitting to write something down is doing something. It's admitting fault, is what it's doing. I feel that how I've acted over the past months about myself and my job has not been the best. I set myself up to take a fall, and now I've fallen... what do I do now?

But, let me take a step back for those who don't know or don't follow my journals. After all, no one's commented on my front page since September... no one's sent a Note asking me where I am, where's the art I owe them, or anything like that. Hell, no one's claimed a pic for my 3,000, 3,500, or 4,000th hits on my Deviant Art front page. It's an ongoing thing, you know? Hell, I let anyone from the x500 to x500+50 grab a pic from my front page... so far, no one's called 4,000, and there's still lots of time. Heck, you reading this page right this very second could be that "lucky" person...

In any event, the story goes a little something like this: There's a system at Telepreformance (formerly CallTech) where I used to work which is a Points System. Basically, you want to keep yourself below Six Points (or preferably below Four) to be able to keep your job. There are special allowances made for, say, people having been sick, but otherwise, you best keep your points down.

Overall, unless you're just bad at the job, it's actually difficult to get your points high enough to get Fired. Most people either just Quit or screw up so badly they're let go pretty quick. I myself worked there for 13 months and a day, so if you keep showing up for work, you're prettymuch golden.

There in lies the key, however. I missed a lot of work from August to September due to various sicknesses and other things cropping up. I got my points as high as 11.75 at one point, and that's just not healthy. Luckily, they understood... at the time. You see, the easiest way for someone such as myself to get points is to miss work. A day missed gets you Two Points if you don't call in (No Call, No Show), and One Point if you do. Futhermore, if you do call in, you can also call in the next two days for only .25 each, instead of 1. This means only 1.5 points for three days... see? Hard to get points.

Furthermore, you work points off by doing Overtime. There's almost always Overtime Available... and 4 Hours works off .25 Points... and here in lies the kicker. I missed enough days to get myself from around 2 points already to upwards of 11.75... that's a lot of days, yes? Small Paychecks, right there... and even then, I still paid for my roommate's rent at her old place for a month (or two, I forget). Top that off with not coming in for Overtime so much, and you'll see the beginning of my problem.

The final stages of my problem is that I was doing well enough that I didn't really fear loosing my job. I was getting good scores, my points were rolling off over time (which they do... .25 after two months, .5 after three, etc...) and I was down to about 8.75 two weeks ago. It was then I was effectively given a warning. I had until the end of December or I would be let go. I had to get my points down, or else.

Luckily, if I didn't work any Overtime, I'd be below Six Points before the end of the month... I still planned to, but having that safety net was still nice... until it broke, that is. Apparently, I mentioned something like this within earshot of my Supervisor and someone higher up. They took from my comments to mean that I had no intention of performing Overtime, and that it didn't matter to me how many points I had at the moment.

I'm not sure what exactly I said, but I made the mistake of saying that I absolutely did not say it... and if there were a single thing to learn (and I mean you, not me... I knew this and screwed it up anyway), it's to never work in absolutes. Because the Supervisor and the other higher-up lady both heard me say whatever it is I said, and I said I didn't say it... I'm pretty sure that's why they let me go.

The most painful part was that I had respect for Cory, doing what needed to be done and such... and then I got to see it first hand, and I have to say... WtF. I mean, he calls up my Sup because she's not there right then. Him and her have a conversation while I'm standing there... and the last 5+ minutes, I knew I was going to be let go. He even said so... and I'm thinking to myself I might as well just walk off. I mean, it was very rude... "Yes, yes, I'll fire him. Yes. Uh-huh... yes. No, I agree with that assessment" or whatever, for five plus minutes while I'm standing there... well, fuck you too.

Never been escorted out of a building before.

In any event... It's my fault, all of it. I should have tried harder to work my points off. I should have known that having until the end of December didn't mean anything. I should have known, and didn't... and I have no one to blame but myself.

Well, I have lots of people I can blame, but it's rather pointless. When you get right down to it, other people or things influencing you are just that... influences. When push comes to shove, no one's got a gun to your head... you do what you want. So, yes, I could blame others, but it wouldn't be truthful. It wouldn't be me.

So, here I am, watching a Speed Run of Castlevaina: Circle of the Moon because I haven't seen the game all the way through before, wondering to myself what to do. It's the weekend, and besides applying online (which is what I am also doing), there's not much else I can do. I guess I'll finish watching my Die Hards again (the next one is still set to come out next year "Live Free or Die Hard"), or play more Disgaea 2, Sim City 4, or maybe just some Wii Bowling. I really don't know.

So, yeah, the Journal's done. Someone call the pic, or no one will. You know the drill, take a screen shot, drop it in your Scraps, Note me about it. Boom. Image in que. I haven't really drawn something in a long while, and my drawing notebook is missing...

See you in the Future,
—The One True Huntermun


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